These past two weeks, I was not me. I was a robot, who don't care whether there is time to rest or not, whether there is food to eat when I am hungry, whether it's afternoon or night outside, because I only go out for classes and stayed at home to study and study.
IT WAS A SUPER CRAZY HECTIC WEEKS!
I forced myself to cope well with my busy activities. Last week, I need to focus on my test, lab report, assignment, and some more practice regularly for Uni's day dance performance. I missed out all the party, and everything that you called as FUN. I have no FUN at all. All I have were stress and tension. My sleeping hours messed up! I slept less than 5 hours a day. Once, I only slept for 2 hours due to finish up all the works.
The week after that (this week), my schedule is still the same, even worse than before. I got two tests in two days row, lab reports, assignments to deal with. Crazy? Almost! I got no mood at all. I was exhausted. Everyday I am telling myself to exhale and inhale, bear with all of these, be patient, not to give up, have a positive mindset, after the test, I am free like a bird.
So here I am, wanting to say that I just finished up my tests. Still got one more to go on the end of October. I supposed to feel good after managed to go through everything. I supposed to be relax, chill out, have fun or just have a good rest after all of these.
But you don't always feel like what you supposed to feel.
I don't see the things going well.
My assignment which I did until 5am, surprisingly the score was being divided by three just because some of my classmates copied my work exactly the same. I cried out badly, I feel like all my hard works and sleepless night are just useless. I feel like the lecturer judged my work as a rubbish and didn't think twice before he deducted my score drastically. I cried until my eyes swollen, but it didn't change any of my score. I just can't accept it. I don't see any justice at this case. Tell me, where is my fault??
I studied very hard for the tests. I have given all my best that I can. Hoping for the good results to come out. Engineering is tough. The more I study, the more I realize there are so many things that I don't know and need to study harder than others. Yes, it's not easy at all, it's not easy even a bit. Dealing with those physics concept, calculations, theoritical explanations and more tougher stuffs which some of these are not even being used at the working place, yet I still need to learn it and score well at the exam. Pitying myself?? Well.....sometimes.
I know I have not tweeted anything on my twitter recently. It has been 4 days. Wow! It surprised myself too as I used to tweet at least once a day. Too busy? YES! I have become the miss busy bee!
Another reason is there are some spies on my followers' list. I don't know since when they have changed their professions become a spy or secret agent, stalking me and my friends, faithfully! I guess they are too free or maybe too desperate??! Who knows yeah. I can just deleted or blocked those spies from my twitterland, but I still taking some considerations since they are my friends. I tried to think positively why they did this to me and my friends, for there is always a reason behind any actions. Please help me to think out any reasons that make sense to you and me. If the stalkers happened to read this post, please be aware that my friends and I feel so annoyed because of your attitude. We couldn't tweet or write anything that we want on our twitter or bbm status. And what the heck that you need to know what are we eating, where are we going to, what's our plan for tomorrow or weekend, where are we now, and bla bla bla etc. You are not our personal assistant who need to know our complete schedules. Can you please get a normal life? Stalking is not cool at all! It's double annoying. Please wake up from your spy-to-be 's imagination. Thank you.
More to-do-list for me :
- EE assignment
- FM lab reports
- HT lab reports
- cleaning the bathroom
- laundry (lots of clothes)
- rearrange the kitchen, dining table, living room.
- clean and tidy up house
- settle the bills
- my room is a mess. (the effect from the exam.)
- print out some notes
- .................................
- I think I have forgotten some.
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