Friendship Ties

My friendship with some good friends are being tested. Suddenly, there are some problems popping out. People can change unexpectedly and it shocked you sometimes. I wanted to help out and cleared every misunderstanding between all of us. I was too busy recently but I keep updated myself with the news, I heard some stories, I saw the changes of your attitude, I felt some ignorances, I sensed some misunderstanding. Let's not talk about which side is right and which side is wrong. One thing that I know is I don't mind swallowing my pride to beg for forgiveness, because I treasure and cherish our friendship. I care for you like a brother and sister. I can't force you to be very mature in such a young ages. I don't blame you, but blaming myself for not sensing all of these sudden changes, not understanding you well, and not taking quick reaction due to my packed activities. I believe everyone of us don't want to lose you. We want you to come back, back as a family again. I feel so sad when I see the friendship become like this. I couldn't sleep well last night, thinking of this. I promised myself to settle it when I finished my tests, and it means now and real soon.

The reason that I really take care of my friendship is, I met too many wrong people in my life. I've fought many rivals. The worst were those who called themselves my friends.

At first, we are a very-good-best-friends, I thought we will be a very-good-best-friends forever (a naive thinking, don't you think so??) but never did I ever think that the very-good-best-friends are the one who stabbed my back, pulled me to my down level, hurt my feelings over and over again, created some bad issues about me on my back. I feel like a fool for trusting the very-good-best-friends will never hurt me, for trusting that they are really my very-good-best-friends, and if I have them, I have everything that I want and need in life. Hmmm.. Looks like I still can't forget, the scars of being betrayed are still there. It's funny how sometimes the people you'd take a bullet for, are the one's behind the trigger. 

Some people come into your life as blessings, others come into your life as lessons. 

That's my learning experience. Learning to see things further, learning not to trust people easily, learning to be ignorance sometimes (just because you scared of getting hurt and betrayed again), learning to be strong enough and not weak in front of people, knowing there are people who will try to break you down and mess with your life. It's your choice to let them beat you up or show them you are strong enough. So, when I found out the ones who really care for me, who accept me for who I am, who treat and love me like a family, who stayed and be there in my ups and downs, I will really cherish and treasure every of them very well. :) 

It's not a matter of numbers, how many best friends that you got. For me, the numbers aren't important (unless you want to show off), the most important is you know you have found your best true friends. That's what really matter at all. :) Quantity can be added, but quality is through the process.

Friendship is a state of mutual trust and support between each other.

It's not how long I have known you, it is what we have been through (that matter the most).

It is a bond that pulled together by laughs, tears, sleepovers, and should have been theres.

A best friend is someone you can tell your hopes and dreams and know they won't laugh.

It's the friends you can call up at 4am.

Someone who doesn't know how you feel but will sit with you until you feel better.

One who will wait with you even though they are already late.

One who will come over to your house after you had a bad day and drag you out to get ice cream or chocolate, just to make you feel better.

You know you've got a best friend when they stay up with you all night laughing about a joke that wasn't very funny. 

Someone who makes you laugh for hours about the stupidest things.

You know they're your best friends when you look at each other and you both laugh out loud at jokes you told yesterday.
Best friends is someone who still wants to be your friend no matter what people say about you.

You know you have caring and good friends when your name is safe in their mouths. Treasure them, cause they are the true friends.

People come, people go and fate always has its own timing. It's a moment for us to treasure every seconds with the loved ones.

Nobody's perfect, even your best friends make mistakes, but no matters what, you'll always find reasons to stay.

*smurf hugs to all my best true friends*

I love, cherish and treasure you all with my heart.

<3