Dear God, I am so stressful right now. :( feel like going to the top of the high building, shouting out loud at there without any fears, crying freely as no one will see and hear, lying on the floor and staring to the night sky that full with stars, knowing that day is still going to pass, life is still going on, problems are going to be settled down (although it takes some time for it), believing that God is on the control and everything will be fine (alright).

God, You are the one who knows what going on, what happened, how and why. I learnt not to tweet my problem on twitter recently and I think I am dealing with it quite well. I learnt to tell You from heart to heart, surrender to You the God Almighty.

Not forget to mention that God is being so good to me. He is always good. I don't know how to show my gratitude, am just so blessed and grateful beyond any words or measurements. Thank you, God, for not leaving me alone, for showing me the way (track) that I need to go and do, for helping with those things that suddenly popped out, for blessing me with lot of things that I have never thought before. May all the glory just for You, God. <3

But right now, I really feel that I am so weak and fragile. I am on the edge of the valley, and if those pressure comes, I think I will fall down into it. :(

Crying is useless, although I wanted to cry out so much right now. It might make me feel better but can't solve anything.

God, please help me, teach me something through everything that I have gone through or need to go through later on, shape me to become a better person, a better daughter of God, a better Christian. I know right now I am in the training field, I need to go through the battle (process). Please walk with me until the end, until the finish line. Strengthen me with Your power. I might be fall down during the process (like right now), but lift me up, and walk together with me until the very end, till I heard You said : "Well done, Pris, my daughter, the army of God."

Stay CREATIVE!

Okay, so here is my 'early-in-the-morning' post for you. HAHAHA!
Let me summarize what happened yea. :p
So, every Monday, I do have class at 8am. I woke up, bathed, got ready and rushing to class, because my lecturer is very strict with punctuality. BUT after I reached the class (to be exact, after I stand in front of the class's door) then only I know that the class is shifted to tomorrow!
What an exercise! :D thank you, sir. :p

Just want to share some thing that I read.

Between dad and her lil' girl.

"I am a little embarrassed, because I am talking about it to you."

"Embarrassed? Embarrassed about what? We are talking about someone that might be a part of our family."

"Family?"

"Of course it's a family. If you guys get married, we are a family that eat at the same table."

"Dad, who do you want me to get married to?"

"Hmm.. Someone that thinks you are the most important person in their life. For my daughter, he will endure anything and if he has you, that is the only thing he needs in life."

"There is no man like that in this world, all men nowadays are selfish."

"If he isn't up to my standards, I can't give my daughter to him. My daughter is so precious."

"I only expect one thing, a man who would be good to you. If the man is good to you, I think he will treat me the way you treat me."

"That kind of man, I would want to walk you down the aisle, and have no regrets."

"............................................................................................................"

"Why?"

"I don't know. but just hearing you say that, makes it feel like you are leaving. I don't think I want to get married."

"I never said not to marry, it is adding more people into our family. We get new family members. You get a new set of parents, and you are getting a best friend like me."

"I will take those words to my heart. A person that takes my side, a new mom and dad, if it all fits, I will get married. If it doesn't fit it, I won't. Okay?"

Happy Sunday !

I remembered that during 3am, I still tweet on my twitter, updating status that I still can't sleep yet, and that's not good because I need to wake up at 7am to prepare everything and to catch up the bus to the church. Don't know why recently it's so hard for me to sleep early (before 12), I always ended up sleeping at 2 or 3am. :( Woke up at 6am and am freshly awake. (weird ya? only slept for 3hours, man!). Inside the bus, I tried to sleep and listen to some slow songs, but still I am awake, can't sleep and just enjoying the outside view and the songs. Until the church's service ended, still I am full of energy. :D Really thanks God for His protection and strength. :)

I met some random friends, talking bout random stuffs too. And we suddenly talked about Dubai! ;;)

I told that friend which has already visited Dubai, that I, as a civil engineer to be, really wish that one day I can go to Dubai. Yes! For us (civil engineer), being to Dubai is like a dream comes true. It will be really a great luck if we even can have a chance to work at there. Don't you think so? hehehehe.

From our conversation, that friend know that I do have and interested with Dubai. We keep talking, sharing the informations and yeaaa.. that friend asked my email, inviting me to those professional engineer who has interest with Dubai and do tell me about the internship at there. It's a WOW! :D I really will put my hope and faith. :) and I will pray for it to be real and true. :D (please pray along with me too ya) 

Sunday's service.

What's an honor and privilege to come to the house of God, worshiping Him among Your people. 

I miss him! :D I always wanted to go to the church together with him, my family and his family. :)

I always wanted to seek and worship God together with the people that I love the most in my life. :)

I wanted we to grow deeper together in our spiritual life and serve God in our life. :)

Falling in love with a gentleman of God. <3

So, it's so good to hear from each other, knowing although we are separated by distance and miles, we are still putting God as our priorities, seeking Him, enjoying the presence of God, listening to the words of God which really strengthened us as a Christian. :)

I am very proud of you. Despite of all your business and I know the church is quite far from your place, but you still managed to come to the house of God. You even shared to me what's the pastor preaching about, told me that you are so blessed by it. :)

God, I am so grateful. 

Had a good dinner time with my besties (Friska, Tiara, Daniel and David). We had so much fun, laughter and joy. I miss you all. So good to be back and have a good catching up session. *group hugs*

They sent me back to my apt, and visited me and my housemate (Felix). Then Sergio also join us in the house. :D We really laughing very loud, teasing each other, sharing information, telling the newest news, have a heart to heart session. I am so enjoying the times with you all. It has always enlightened my day. :)

feel nothing ..... ??

Too much mixed feelings.

At last, I feel nothing at all.

Christmas, please come earlier.
I miss you!