Mood swing. Sad. Disappointed. Distressed. Pain. Anger. Upset. Frustration.
That are kinda how I feel right now. Wondering why it happened (again). Life is hard, tough, unfair. Truly indeed yes. I have been treated unequally just because I am an international student. Why?! I want to know why.
I tweeted this on my twitter. My true feeling.
"How creepy it takes to prove that you're innocent & talking the truth. You're being humiliated first before you got the justice. Insane."
That's how I really feel during that time and it makes me down for whole day, even until now.
Why....Why I need to go through this.
Why....Why a person with higher position can judge me in front of many people.
Why....Why this person can freely assume that I have done this and that.
Why....Why this person does not even give me a chance to explain.
Why....Why this person said those bad stuffs about me and my friends just because we are international students.
Why....Why we as international students can't be the leaders and yet must be the followers or second person.
Why....Why this person cares so much about our identities as an international students who study at people's country and treat us unequally.
WHY WHY WHY!!
The worse is...Why this person must be a Christian. This gave me a double disappointment and pain.
*teary when I type this*
Going to print out my flight ticket tomorrow. 11 more days and I am going back to my home-country, Indonesia. Flying back to the place where I belong to. I miss home. I miss my family. I miss my home-church.
Dear God, why do I need to go through this kind of situation? The discrimination that I can't handle mentally.
They saw me differently in their eyes. Why should I be the same with them?
I am different.
I am Indonesian. :)
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